Our minds are WAY more powerful than we realize!
I was getting so frustrated. And worried. And that becomes a vicious cycle. I began to realize though, that perhaps my worry and anxiety were at least partially a root cause of some of the medical issues I was having. Because I was having a bunch of stuff that just didn’t 100% tie together for any specific illness.
So I gave myself one week of putting all worrying and fear and hyper-anxiety on the back burner, to see if it made any difference/improvement at all. I did not allow myself to get into those kinds of frantic, ruminating mind-games about my health or my symptoms. I practiced positive thinking. I changed my internet home page from the news to my Twitter account, that I had cleaned up so that all politics was gone. Nothing but Zen accounts, Positive Thinking Accounts, home decor accounts, photography accounts, etc.
Low and behold, within 24 hours, I saw improvement. Now, three days in, all but 2 symptoms are completely GONE.
I was driving myself crazy and into serious medical problems!!!
Don’t get me wrong…I’m still on a seriously restricted diet. To be cautious, I can only re-introduce one food every 3-4 days. But I’m feeling SO much better, it’s practically miraculous!
Part, too, of my problem, based on 14 months of mostly crappy health…was that I was developing a real phobia about getting old, and what was left (or not.) It was bad. I had to knock myself upside the head about it, the past 48 hours. Shite, NO ONE is guaranteed a tomorrow. Ask Bill Paxton. Ask anyone who is struck by a car and dies, no matter what their age is. THERE ARE NO GUARANTEES.
Yes, I’m 65.5. Shit is gonna happen. But you know what? I have limited days left…and I need to work MUCH harder on enjoying them to the fullest. Because the real shit could hit the fan tomorrow. Or 2 weeks from now. Or 5 years from now. I’m wasting valuable time wallowing in abject fear over it. So that shit has got to be stopped and I have to re-focus my thoughts whenever those kinds of issues start to try to work back into my consciousness. Life is just too.damned.short.
So that’s where I am. Instead of worrying and dwelling on health and politics, I prefer to gab with you guys; here and at your blogs. I’ll be visiting you all between now and the end of the weekend. I’ve missed you all!