Monthly Archives: November 2017

My heart aches for a close friend

We worked together for about six years; about 4 years ago she retired across country with her husband (and her daughter, son-in-law, and 3 grandkids.)  (they bought 2 separate homes, about 20 minutes apart.) (her daughter is their only child.)

I want to let u know that I lost my Paul this morning. Two weeks ago he went to the hospital for a catherization of his heart. Prior to the procedure his blood test showed a white cell count of 20,000. That was on a Monday two weeks ago. The Thursday prior it was 8000. So they did not do the cath and admitted him as the blood count indicated an infection. He was diagnosed with lymphoma and leukemia. The cancer was in the nodes and the blood.  Also he was having kidney failure. The day we brought him home the white cell count was 65,000.  We brought him home this Saturday to hospice care. He was on heavy Morphine because he was very agitated. He slept all the time. He was never in pain. The doctors were very surprised at how aggressive the cancer was. The lymphoma dr told me that she had never seen this cancer move so fast. I am just glad that he did not suffer. 

I am ok. I had several days to say good bye. (*insert daughter’s name*) was by my side the whole way. He will be cremated and will take his ashes to the dock where he went fishing with (*insert son-in-law’s name*) and the kids. I think the kids will like that. “
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My heart just breaks for her.  My first father-in law, and my best friend, went from cancer diagnosis to death, both within 3-4 months.  And I thought THAT was extremely fast; I can’t even fathom going from unexpected diagnosis to death of one’s spouse within a mere 2 weeks.
She is an extremely, extremely strong, intelligent, with it woman.  She will survive, and probably do it with more grace and aplomb than almost anyone I know.  But she lost her mother at Xmas time about 7 years ago, and now her husband at Thanksgiving.  And just so damned, damned fast.
sooooooooooo sad.  😦

My three (grand) Sons

The weekend was PACKED with activity!
Friday night we went and saw Thor (LOVED IT.)
Saturday we cleaned.  That afternoon we went to middle grandson’s soccer finals; they won their game and got 3rd place.  (as you recall, they were penalized for scoring too many goals in last weekends playoff games, and victories taken from them, and told they could only play for 3rd place on Saturday.  They did.  They won.)  Here he is with his coaches, and with his team.  Great bunch of little guys!

His little brother was there, so I got to see that grandson too.

When we got home, my oldest daughter, her best friend, and my oldest grandson came to go to dinner with us and see Justice League, and spend the night.  Loved that movie too!

Yesterday was recover/football all day.

I’m pooped!

I’m disgusted

1.  at the House of Reps approving this ridiculous tax bill that will rob from the middle class to give to the upper 1% and robs from health care too.

2.  at any male, ‘famous’ or not, politician or not, Democrat or Republican or WHATEVER, who FUCKING SEXUALLY ASSAULTS A WOMAN.  Groping, or worse.  JUST STOP IT, DAMMIT.  And stop accusing others across the political aisle when you are guilty as fuck yourself.

3.  this extends to the President of the USA;

4.  I’m tired of doing the circle-jerk on Twitter.  It ends up just being like-minded folk agreeing, or disliking/muting/blocking those you don’t, but I sure as heck don’t want to go to a message board and fight about it either.  Leading to

5.  it’s all so pointless.  Futile.  Out of my hands.  I can only wait for

6.  Mueller’s findings and his actions.  And if not, well, I guess I just have to learn to deal with the mess this country is in, and continue to vote every chance I get to change things.

I can’t do more than that.  I’m too medically compromised to do much more.  Because my body can’t handle the long term stress level.

Yes, doing nothing doesn’t alleviate all of the stress from this; as long as Trump is in office and dotards of the GOP congress continue to do his bidding…my stress level will always be high.

But I’m just so frustrated and disgusted.  We got an election win a week or so ago, but it’s been nothing but further degrading shit happening since.

I need to go back to stroking my puppies and reading and watching TV/football, and looking at cute baby photos online.  And just focus on our cool (old farts)  blogverse that we have going.  Do my best to ignore the rest.

ugh.  :: deep sigh ::


No, not the scented stuff.

Stream of consciousness thoughts here…

It’s b.s. that my middle grandson’s soccer team that was undefeated in the regular season (with 1 tie), won their two playoff games, but are being penalized for scoring so much in those playoff games and are now being told that they can only play this weekend for THIRD place.  When they took a 5 goal lead in both playoff games, they switched out their forwards as they are supposed to.  It’s not their fault that other kids scored too!  This is total b.s.  and just teaching the kids the wrong thing.  I understand good sportsmanship, but I don’t like the message they are sending the kids to not try their best.  I’m pissed, frankly.

This Is Us is just heartbreaking this season.  Last night’s episode KILLED.  Amazing stuff!

Bad Moms Xmas was HYSTERICAL.  My new favorite Xmas movie.

Can’t wait for Justice League this Saturday.  Especially since we get to share it with my older daughter and oldest grandson.

I can’t wait to retire.

I can’t believe Xmas is almost here.

I need to lose some weight.

My mom, at 91…is really starting to slow down (finally.)  It’s sad and she’s stressed.  She’s always been a nervous woman, but it’s getting bad/sad to watch.  😦

I can’t believe Xmas is almost here; gotta start shopping!

I hate shopping.

That’s it for now.  🙂

Religion and Trump

I don’t get it.  I’m a Christian.  The Christian faith I know is for love.  Love is the cornerstone of Christianity.  (and an abiding belief in Jesus Christ.)

It doesn’t stand for:

  • pedophilia
  • taking money from the less fortunate and giving it to the wealthiest
  • building walls to keep out people of a different color or faith
  • NOT giving to those less fortunate (especially the innocent/children)
  • believing in and promoting hate and fear

So I just don’t get this far-right support of Donald Trump, or hatred of people of color, or the mindset that it’s okay to oppose death via abortion, but don’t give a cent to help a child AFTER it’s born if it has to come from tax money.

I don’t understand supporting a man with well-collaborated accusations of pedophilia, for a Senate seat, rather than allow a well qualified person from the Democratic party…to win. Let alone elect a President who has been caught on tape laughing about grabbing a woman by the pussy.  Who thinks it’s okay to walk into the dressing room of women changing clothes at a beauty pageant.  Who openly threatens war against a mad-man dictator already playing with nuclear weapons of destruction.  Who calls white supremacists “fine people”.  Who sides with a horrid Russian president over his own FBI, CIA, or NSA.  The list could go on and on.

I don’t understand anything at ALL about supporting Donald Trump.  I get the ‘wanting a shake up’….I don’t get voting for someone without a shred of decency or experience to be President.  Which they KNEW about, prior to the election.  It shows to me a complete lack of respect for our country, our Constitution, and our Bill of Rights.  FAR more unpatriotic than kneeling for the national anthem, which never DID have ANYTHING to do with the military.

And I certainly have NO understanding why ANYONE would hide under the protection of Christianity to support someone with very credible, multiple accusations of pedophilia.   AT ALL.  I think it’s a ruse, and I think that they have black souls.  (if souls at all.) I’m sick to death of people using their religions to hide behind their evil, soulless personas.  Christianity has no more to do with pedophilia than atheism does.  Fact is, it should be FAR, FAR less.  Let’s not blame the faith, and instead blame the sick, twisted fucks who hide behind it.  Sorry for the potty mouth, but the blasphemy that is raging with the alt-right is obscene!

I’m not going to be silent about it.  Being silent is being complicit.

just getting crazier and crazier by the minute

The world just seems to be going to hell in a hand basket.  Not sure how much worse it will get.

A senatorial candidate for the GOP in Alabama has been accused by a handful of women, with credible, researched stories…of sexually inappropriate behavior with them when they were between the ages of 14-16, and he was in his early 30’s.  He denies it, and GOP ranges from ‘crazy bitches’ to likening him to Joseph and Mary (erroneously, since Mary’s was an IMMACULATE CONCEPTION, but we digress…)…and talk about consensual sex.  In other words, if it allows the GOP to gain a seat or retain a seat, it doesn’t matter how sleazy or immoral their candidate is.

Then someone handed the cell phone back to Trump, and the crazy tweets started again today.  Here’s a sampling:

When will all the haters and fools out there realize that having a good relationship with Russia is a good thing, not a bad thing. There always playing politics – bad for our country. I want to solve North Korea, Syria, Ukraine, terrorism, and Russia can greatly help!
Does the Fake News Media remember when Crooked Hillary Clinton, as Secretary of State, was begging Russia to be our friend with the misspelled reset button? Obama tried also, but he had zero chemistry with Putin.
Why would Kim Jong-un insult me by calling me “old,” when I would NEVER call him “short and fat?” Oh well, I try so hard to be his friend – and maybe someday that will happen!

I’m sorry…the man is simply insane. And traitorous; straight up, in the public.  He doesn’t even try to hide it.

Jiminy Cricket; we are in insane times.  It feels like a completely upside down world, doesn’t it?

As someone else posted today:

Mueller: lying Comey: lying Obama: lying Clinton: lying Federal judges: lying His sex assault accusers: lying Scientist about climate change: lying Doctors about Affordable Care Act: lying Mother of slain U.S. soldier: lying Putin: He means it.

I was happy to hear that Caroline Kennedy is thinking of running for office.  She’s stated this:

Kindness and decency is a dying art…certainly in the GOP.  It’s up to the rest of us to continue to fight/resist, and do our best to get the kind and decent people to every single voting opportunity afforded them.  That’s the only way we can turn this thing around!