…staying away from blogging.
You are all SO AMAZING. I’ve been completely non-existent in our blogging world, and you all came rushing to my side yesterday. I am overwhelmed by your kindness, concern, support.
Seriously. blown. away.
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU
I am a little better every day. I’ll take baby steps forward. They are still steps forward. I’m still losing at a rate of about a pound a day, but I’m a good 30-40 lbs. overweight, so I have that weight to spare.
At 66 1/2 with a recent history of UC, I accept that my liver is now compromised (because it doesn’t have the gallbladder to help it dispose of bile), and probably always will be. I hope to bounce back better than I am now, but I have already accepted that I won’t be able to go back to the high fat diet I was on. I accept my love of steaks has been derailed, for months at the very least if not forever. I accept that chicken, turkey, and fish will be my sources of protein now. Maybe occasionally a slice of prime rib, but burgers and steaks and loads of butter and cheddar cheese (only dairy I could eat anymore anyhow)…are all but done for me.
I’m okay with that. I just want to honor my body’s needs. I just want to be able to quietly enjoy my retirement. I had a good run with garbage food. It’s over now. And it really is okay.
I’m glad my last alcohol ever was the best (two) margaritas I ever had on Cinco de Mayo. They were supposed to be mango, but they really tasted more like nectarine, and they were heavenly. Maybe someday I can go back and have the virgin version. We’ll see. Again, one’s liver after gallbladder removal has to work overtime to deal with the bile in the body. With luck, in 60-90% of the cases, (women) …it does. But again, I have a few strikes against me already (age and health history of UC)…so I don’t intend to push it. Younger, healthier people can do that. I feel like how many wake-up calls am I going to get before I just pay attention and accept the situation for what it is, you know?
So I’m okay with that. Right now, I’m just praying the D slows down enough that I can go back to work a week from Monday. Because when it hits now, it hits fast and I’m 2 long hallways away from the nearest bathroom at work. I might have to ask to go to a shortened work day, to allow for the needs in the morning. We’ll see. That’s all I’ll say. 😉
So, the pain is less every day, and I’m adjusting to the diet, (emotionally if not yet physically) and trying not to worry too much, and just let nature take it’s course in healing. You guys are amazing. My family has been amazing. My husband is a complete rock star.
I’m SO thankful!