I was wrong

…staying away from blogging.

You are all SO AMAZING.  I’ve been completely non-existent in our blogging world, and you all came rushing to my side yesterday.  I am overwhelmed by your kindness, concern, support.

Seriously.  blown.  away.

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU

I am a little better every day.  I’ll take baby steps forward.  They are still steps forward.  I’m still losing at a rate of about a pound a day, but I’m a good 30-40 lbs. overweight, so I have that weight to spare.

At 66 1/2 with a recent history of UC, I accept that my liver is now compromised (because it doesn’t have the gallbladder to help it dispose of bile), and probably always will be.  I hope to bounce back better than I am now, but I have already accepted that I won’t be able to go back to the high fat diet I was on.  I accept my love of steaks has been derailed, for months at the very least if not forever.  I accept that chicken, turkey, and fish will be my sources of protein now.  Maybe occasionally a slice of prime rib, but burgers and steaks and loads of butter and cheddar cheese (only dairy I could eat anymore anyhow)…are all but done for me.

I’m okay with that.  I just want to honor my body’s needs.  I just want to be able to quietly enjoy my retirement.  I had a good run with garbage food.  It’s over now.  And it really is okay.

I’m glad my last alcohol ever was the best (two) margaritas I ever had on Cinco de Mayo.  They were supposed to be mango, but they really tasted more like nectarine, and they were heavenly.  Maybe someday I can go back and have the virgin version.  We’ll see.  Again, one’s liver after gallbladder removal has to work overtime to deal with the bile in the body.  With luck, in 60-90% of the cases, (women) …it does.  But again, I have a few strikes against me already (age and health history of UC)…so I don’t intend to push it.  Younger, healthier people can do that.  I feel like how many wake-up calls am I going to get before I just pay attention and accept the situation for what it is, you know?

So I’m okay with that.  Right now, I’m just praying the D slows down enough that I can go back to work a week from Monday.  Because when it hits now, it hits fast and I’m 2 long hallways away from the nearest bathroom at work.  I might have to  ask to go to a shortened work day, to allow for the needs in the morning.  We’ll see.  That’s all I’ll say.  😉

So, the pain is less every day, and I’m adjusting to the diet, (emotionally if not yet physically) and trying not to worry too much, and just let nature take it’s course in healing.  You guys are amazing.  My family has been amazing.  My husband is a complete rock star.

I’m SO thankful!

34 thoughts on “I was wrong

  1. Ann

    The blogging community can be a pretty amazing place. Glad to hear you are adjusting to a new diet and getting better every day.

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  2. Linda deV

    I only know my experience. Bloggers have picked me up and held me for the last 4 years in a way that has been lovely and surprising. They have encouraged, challenged and chided in a supportive way. I am so grateful for this community.Glad you are on the mend and taking good care of yourself.

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  3. DJan

    Glad to hear you're doing so well! I know it won't be easy to adjust to such a different diet, but I have faith that you'll be doing just fine sooner rather than later. 🙂

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  4. Blondie's Journal

    I read back. You, my friend, and I, are in the same boat. I don't have the food restrictions you have, but I have high cholesterol, am forty pounds overweight (mostly due to inactivity). Man, that surgery does a number on you. I was slowly feeling stronger and less sore, my doctor was doing a dance that I wasn't using a walker and was wearing sandals. He spoke too soon, I've been mostly in bed all weekend. Norco lessens your appetite so I have lost a little weight, but I feel weak and can't sleep with the pain.So sorry for crying on your cyber shoulder. Let's just help each other. Can you make some tasty meatless meals like pasta and veggies? Even a salad with just 1/4 of meat added? Ahhh..the thought of giving up my wine. Ugh!Take care. Stay in touch.Jane x

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  5. Silver Willow

    Jane, feel free to cry on my shoulder anytime. I'm so sorry that you are in so much pain. :: hugs ::My veggie intake/digestibility is extremely limited right now. For the next week at least, yams or baked potato (both dry) are all I'm capable of handling. Salads are at least a month away. It is what it is.I will stay in touch, and YOU take care, too! Thanks!

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  6. Silver Willow

    My next post is on this very topic. That said, it's too soon to determine I need to retire now. That might change in a month's time, but I owe my body (and my bank account) the opportunity to see if I heal better first. Again, will discuss in length by tomorrow/my next post. Thought provoking reply though, for sure. Thanks, my friend!

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  7. Lynda

    I love blogging – so much better than Facebook etc. More personal interaction and you have more control over a blog (in my opinion). You are sounding more positive and happy… do keep blogging, you always have something interesting to say 🙂

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  8. Jono

    Very glad you are doing better. At our age (we're within a couple of months) anything can go wrong and some things just do. We're not ready to pack it in yet, so let's fight on. We've got things to do and days to enjoy. Be well.

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